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so it has been a few long weeks. but today was actually a good day. The weather was great the friends were awesome and the family was some what normal. I have been going through so much drama from so many different angles lately that im just warn slap out. Im hoping that things will start to get brighter. On top of everything else it seems I am coming down with an upper respiratory yuckiness. Which leads me to my next segment.

I had my second 5k on Saturday and while I did well on my first one I had higher goals for my self for this one. I wanted to finish with out stopping as well as finish with a lower time. Well I did not accomplish either goal and i have to say that I was very hard on myself for that. I have no excuses for what happened just a recap of the whole thing. It was cold but i was excited. We started up a hill and I thought on the way down this is going to be ok. Then it started....I felt as if a full grown human was sitting on my chest. So i decided to walk for a few minutes and try to get it to stop. Then running again I started to taste blood so I spit and there was blood.(im ok it was just that yucky cold i was talking about) This is when the mental aspect stepped in and I was freaking out that I wasn't ok and that I was sucking. I have an awesome running partner and at this point I wanted to keep up with her but my mind had already given up. This is the part I am disappointed about. I know i should have sucked it up and just run but that is not what happened. I did finish the race and I only was slower by 2 minutes from my first race. I know this isn't horrible seeing as i did walk a lot more than the first one but still i am not happy. So our next race is at the end of may and my goal is to kick ass. I have to redeem my self and bring up my spirits. I want to thank my running buddies and my supporters they were great on saturday and im thankful for them.