whats the point

what is really the point of all the masks and dancing around the real stuff? Why do we always feel a need to keep up the charade? I have been around a whole lot of people through out my life and I feel that I am a pretty good judge of character but my down fall is being to nice and wanting to see the good in people. But lately I have been around some people that well to be honest really frustrate the hell out of me! Why put on a smiling face if you dont mean it? I promise I can tell and it isn't making either of our time any more enjoyable. Also, if you don't like me then by god dont act like you do....I am a strong person and can handle it if you dont. I tried I really did to see the good but sometimes it isn't enough.

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I also feel that I am a pretty good friend. I know how i want to be treated and try my hardest to treat my friends the exact way. With the one exception of having horrible "phone mind"(yes that is a made up thing i just came up with)...i just forget to call people back its not on purpose it just happens. But that said....over the years I haven't kept many of my once friends. They have all gone there separate ways by both my choice and theirs but sometimes I wonder if I am doing something to drive them away. If i am I assure you have no knowledge of what this is and would hope that someone would step up and say hey this is what you do that I do not like and I assure you that I would do everything I could to fix this. But seriously when someone invites me somewhere and I say im going then I dont just not show up and not call to advise of why.....if someone needs me to do something for them and there is nothing life threatening standing in my way then i do it.....I always love to listen and rarely feel the need to burden those around me with my own problems unless they want to here them, and I always want to give my very best for every special occasion in everyone of my friends life's. I know that it is what I would want so im sure they would want the same. But still over the years I haven't kept many of my friends.

These days I feel that I have a really great group of friends. People that I can count on...so if you are one of those people and have an issue with something i have done or do please inform me so i can change.

sorry for the all over the place post i just started writing and this is what you get:)