heart attack for the hubby

so the last few weeks i have found my self having baby fever....kinda(here is where tommy has the heart attack). I have know for awhile that I wanted another child EVENTUALLY.(now he can breath a little better) I wanted to wait untill we were a little more stable ,financially, than we are now...Also I wanted to wait untill we have a house or a bigger place. well over the last few weeks it has become clear that those two things will not fall into place for around five years or so....this is where the anxt comes in. I wanted our children to be close in age and I wanted them to be out of the house around the same time when we are still young so we can travel and fun stuff like that....but five years puts the age deiffernece at seven years and that is just not what I had planned(life is never how its planned i know). Its just something that has been at the top of my mind for awhile, so i figured I would write about it. It just frustrates me how money runes our lives. if there wasnt a money issue I could have a second child when ever we wanted too. I understand and truely believe we will be ok without money but it still runs our lives and I wish it didn't. so hunny rest easier because im not asking for another baby today :)