eating alone

so i have had like twenty ideas over the last week of things to talk about in a post and I will try to remember them all. so here is the first one.

What is your take on eating alone? Like at a public place? This is something that doesn't bother me at all but I know some that would never dream of doing it. The other day I was waiting on a friend to get off work so we could go tacky outfit shopping. I was hungry and wanting some zoes. So i went and ordered me some food and sat down to eat it. This is great people watching time. As I was observing the other customers I noticed a few things. The first was that I was getting alot of looks. Im not sure if this was because I was sitting alone, or because they were taken away with my smoking hot looks(holding in a laugh) or just because I was staring at them doing my people watching:) I think it was a mixture of one and three. Two was just for my own fantasy. I found it funny that people were so concerned that I was sitting alone. I have a husband, a child and lots of friends so I am not sitting here by my self because I am all alone it is just because everyone is doing something else and I am hungry.

The second thing I noticed were the other people that were eating by them self. There was a man that looked like he was on his lunch break, and a younger lady. The interesting thing about these people was how they were acting and what they were doing while eating alone. The younger girl who was probably younger than me but not high school age was on her Phone the whole time. I think at one point she faked a conversation with someone just to look and sound like she had friends. I only got a small part of the conversation but she was basically explaining why she was sitting there eating by her self to someone on the other end. She was doing this just load enough for everyone else to here. The gentleman that was on his lunch break was the funniest. He was working on some papers but he would not even look around or at his food long enough to take a bite. He seemed to want to disappear so no one would notice him. Then he was finished and gone...I don't think he even chewed. Either he just was not comfortable being by him self or he needs to tell his boss he needs a longer lunch break.

so I want to know your thoughts...??? Can you eat alone?

movies

there are like fifty movies i want too see right now and i have no money to do this or time. there is the blindside, new moon, my sisters keeper, couples retreat, whip it, the one about lying i forgot the name, and so many more in the theater and out. But have you seen the prices for going to the movies? its outrages. I could by my self a shirt with the money i would spend on a ticket popcorn and a drink. Then there is renting. They have the 1 dollar rentals at publix but then you have to remeber to take it back after a day and you also have to hope the machine works and they have the movie you want to see. you would think with the economy like it is they would lower prices on movies not hike them up.

now that im done with my rant...im going to see new moon on wed:) ill let you know how it is:)

tired

im so very tired.....of all of it. not just sleep deprived tired but tired. It just seems that stuff is never going to get better. A few weeks ago I told a few of you that someone had hurt my feelings at work. Well it made me start thinking about how well or not well I do at just about everything. Well when you start thinking about all the stuff you do wrong it isn't very uplifting? I have just been slowly going over all aspects of my life and pointing out to my self what im not doing right or to the best of my ability. Its not a small list. I need to turn things around but not sure how to do that when the reality of it all is that things are going to get worse before they get better. I have great friends and family that help me through all of this as well as a pretty good relationship with god and im trying really hard to be positive but its hard. so to those of you that have been here for me thank you. i just needed to vent and thanks for listening....well reading:)

urgent update

so I'm sure all of you have been wondering the answers to the questions regarding The Little Mermaid from an earlier post. I don't want any of you to lose any more sleep so i just found out an answer to one of them. I was watching the little mermaid beginning, today, on the Disney channel and it shows Ariel growing up. It also covers Ariel's mom and why she isn't around. apparently she was killed by some pirates when Ariel was really little. so there you have it you can sleep sound tonight... a mermaid was killed by pirates and left seven children and husband to fend for them selves. Yes this is what is in the movies my child is watching great message right:)

im going out of my mind

so the past few nights have been a nightmare. Cadence has been sleeping in a toddler bed for awhile now but just recently relized she can get up when ever she wants. We have also changed bed time around since she was waking up so early we wanted her to sleep a little later so we moved bed time from sevenish to around 8:30 9:00. But now when I put her down and shut the door she immediatly gets up and comes to the door and walks out. I put her back down and we start again. This goes on for about an hour. She thinks this is a game so nothing I say or do makes her understand stay in the bed. I tell her she will go to time out but that just meens i get to get up. I tell her she will get in trouble and she has to stay in bed. I get very frustrated and im not sure what to do about it. We ahve decided not to spank because how can we tell her not to hit and then do what we tell her not to do? so im out of options. Im hoping and praying this is just a phase and in a week or two she will grow out of it. i don't think anyone who reads this has children but if you do and have any advice I would love it:)

repetition

So Cadence has officially hit the repetition phase in her life. For the past few months she has started repeating her self over and over and over and over and over....sorry it sticks....this is something that I knew would come and im pretty patient so it isn't that big of a deal. On the other hand she is now wanting to watch one thing and one thing only. The Little Mermaid is permanently etched into my head now, since we watch it no less than three times a day..that's right three times a day. Don't get me wrong I love Disney movies and this is one of my favorites but every now and then a little jungle book or 101 Dalmatians would be a relief. Just something else anything else.

And after watching this movie so many times I have some serious questions....like where is Ariel's mother? There is Titan and quite a few other daughters but there is never any mention of the mother who birthed all of these mermaids. And why is it that when Ariel turns into a mermaid on the wedding ship and Ursala turn back into a octopus does no one freak out that mermaids exist? In the beginning of the movie they discuss mermaids and eric doesn't seem to think they exist. But after Eric kills Ursala and Ariel gets married they all seem unfazed by the presence of all the mermaids. Oh and why doesn't Ariel just write her name on a piece of paper and tell Eric she lost her voice recently so he knows it was her that rescued him? I know I'm over thinking this just a bit and it is a kids movie but give me some credit I have watched it over thirty times this week.